burn

ghosties roam

if you tried harder,
people would care more.

 

 

statement of intent?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

               My every intention is to fail. It is to make every error possible. I know, getting in to this, that most of what I want will look better on paper than in reality. I will come up with ideas, I will draw them out, I will try to create them. It will not work. The end product will, honestly, look terrible. It will be nothing like I pictured and I will be frustrated and I will get upset about it. I will throw tantrums and objects and beg for help and make everyone around want to strangle me. I will keep trying until I am satisfied.

               My portraits will be real (yes, I will focus on portraiture). There will be emotion and grain, dirt and scratches. If people are turned off, if they turn away, I will not care. My models will not wear make-up. If they do, it will be to enhance the photograph instead of cover imperfections. They will not be conventionally “pretty”; they will not be conventional models. I won’t take photos in front of graffiti-ed walls. Girls in pretty dresses will not stand in dilapidated houses looking sad, they will not look forlornly away from the camera while dressed in black, and they will not be drowning in a bathtub of blood. There will be none of that.

                Every project I am assigned, I will see what I can do to make it more interesting, make it different. Change an angle, change an aperture, change a medium. Look at everything as a challenge. How can I make it more original? What can I do to make people ask questions and question themselves? What has no one tried yet, what would be interesting, what will impress _them ^you me?

Cliché is not an option anymore, I am above that. (I am aware that it was cliché of me to say that, just like I am aware that these parentheses are outside the last period.) Just like in this statement, everything I do will have purpose and reason. Nothing is a typo, and nothing is unintended. Using that rationale, I will never make a mistake (when in reality, everything is a mistake).

Someone has always pushed the “learn from your mistakes” theory on me. Truthfully, that phrase makes me want to throw up. Whatever I “learn” from my mistakes will not help, it will hinder. Learning stifles creativity. Learning teaches boundaries, and boundaries kill possibility. Basing your answer on this new theory, if I refuse to learn, then aren’t my possibilities infinite?

STOP WRITING YOUR LIFE IN PROSE
YOU MAKE ME WANT TO VOMIT INK.